Day 97 (multiple days): I choose action
Remember Day 95, where I chose hope? Because a world without hope isn’t worth living in, etc.?
I did a lot of thinking. Lots of walking whenever I could get myself out in nature in between a heat wave that I hope ends any day now, but the humidity rant is one for another day.
Much like getting myself out in nature, I needed to take action. Hope – and many other positive emotions – are active. Much like a lab full of clones in stasis, they require constant care and nurturing to become the best little clone assassins they can be. It’s not enough to say you are hopeful or loving, or kind, or whatever. You have to do it and you have to be it.
I decided I was healthy enough in all regards to really put myself back out there again. I reactivated my OkCupid profile. I updated my profile picture to show off my awesome tattoo, and then I promptly decided I had done enough for one night and would update my questions later. I had no time frame, felt no pressure, and just said I’d see what happened.
It was a big deal for me to do this. Okay, it was HUGE. GIGANTIC. MASSIVE.