Day 80 (July 9): Spent a glorious day with one of my dearest friends and his husband – first part of the day was co-working on our own projects, following by delicious grilled fish and a horror movie to end the night. Perfect Saturday.
Day 81 (July 10): Spent a glorious and work filled day on my big freelance project. By the end, we concluded that it was finished (besides clean-up work). My writing partner and I celebrated with chocolate. Total elation and exhaustion, rolled into one.
Day 82 (July 11): Put the final touches on my first big freelance collaborative project. I have never been so tired – and I’ve never had so much fun.
Day 83 (July 12): Told my boss I was taking a half day on Friday because I was hitting burn out. Very happy I recognized that I was running so out of steam that even the weekends weren’t enough recovery, and very proud of myself for taking care of my needs first.
“Do not hoard what seems good for a later place in the book, or for another book; give it, give it all, give it now.”
Day 84 (July 13): Had the big, bold realization as I was walking out the door to go to work that the reason I’ve been so scared through this process is I’ve never once put faith in myself. I’ve put it in everyone and everywhere else but me.
That’s a belief that, as scary as it is to change, is so, so necessary. I’m happy to let this go.
Day 85 (July 14): First tiny freelance project for a new client. I was terrified but it went off without a hitch. Very happy and excited. Also, learned some cool new things.
Day 86 (July 15): Opted out of going to the company rager and went ocean kayaking with one of my dearest friends. Not only did this check off something on my bucket list, but it was a great reminder to all the fun times I had kayaking when I lived in PA.
Also? Did really well physically. Arms were nowhere near as sore as my legs and abs were the next day.
Day 87 (July 16): I put my scale in the closet. I was using that number as more than a measure of my weight, and it was getting unhealthy. Instead of focusing on all the new and fun exercise I’m incorporating, or the fact that I’ve been eating healthier for months now, I was focused on that number.
The fact that it was hard to do showed me just how badly this needed to be done.
Day 88 (July 17): Spent a glorious day in my PJs doing absolutely nothing. Watched “Mr. Robot”. Had zero regrets.
Day 89 (July 18): Celebrated fitting into a sweater that didn’t fit when I bought it. WOO!