Day 49 (June 8): Finally recovered enough from the flu to be up and back to work. Not sure that I did anything truly scary today except live in my PJs.
Day 50 (June 9): I was really hoping to have done something bigger, better, and scarier for the 50th day. I was just writing that nothing really happened today, but IT DID. I signed up for an online writing course. It’s tough, it’s challenging, and it’s amazing. Also terrifying, because I feel like I’m actually playing big now. It will involve me trying things, failing, trying new things, and repeating, ad nauseum.
And you know what? BRING IT.
Day 51 (June 10): Went to Costco. Alone. Survived the masses of families and couples. More importantly, was able to leave Costco without crying. The last time I was there (December 2015) I’m pretty sure I didn’t even make it back to my car before the tears started and continued all night.
It’s so surprising how something so simple can completely undo you. And how eventually you find strength in doing things alone.
Day 52 (June 11): Put myself out there and applied to two things that I might not have applied to otherwise.
Day 53 (June 12): Applied to two more writing things. I know, right? I’m on a roll!
Day 54 (June 13): Tried a new workout. It was fun and my thighs are still burning. Woo!
Day 55 (June 14): Still reeling from all the violence over the weekend, I take a social media break to process my own emotions. Life goes on…without me 🙂
Day 56 (June 15): Did not take on someone else’s project and responsibility. Resisted with every ounce of my being. RAWR.
Day 57 (June 16): Deleted all my ex’s emails, and deleted the few pictures I had of us on social media. The image below is pretty much how I’m feeling today.