Day 4 of 100 days of scary:
OH MY GOD, FLOWERS! RUN AWAY, RUN AWAY!
Today I did 4 scary things! It wasn’t intentional. It wasn’t easy. I’m still here.
- Stood up for myself in a respectful manner when the very rude dental receptionist who *insisted* he had called me to remind me about my appointment (he hadn’t – he called someone else – twice).
- Stood up for myself with someone I was quite close to. It was way less difficult this time. Still did it in a respectful manner and let go of any expectation that this person will understand why I feel this way.
- After doing #2 (hehehehehehe), I went home and cried. Why is this scary for me? Because I don’t like to admit that I’m hurting right now. Because that means I’m the dreaded “V” – VULNERABLE.
- Instead of jumping right in to writing tonight, I took time to take care of myself first. I practiced yoga and showered before getting down to business. It’s hard for me to put myself first and I can admit that’s where I failed in my last relationship. It’s time to work on me.